Sacred Moment
October 12, 2006 
Persephone came to visit me today at the 'new building'. In a very short period of time we talked about a lot of things, but mostly, I think, we just connected with one another. We talked about the uncertainty that comes with following God as we find ourself on the beach, with the Red Sea in front and Pharaohs Army rushing down from the hills behind us. We're proceeding with a public meal program in a building we almost - but don't quite own yet, and everything - everything - is tentative, uncertain, unclear. (The latest closing date is now the day we are to begin serving meals, and we're fully committed to the community for this program) The uncertainty is weighing heavily on Persephone, as well, yet during the conversation she asked how I was doing. I looked across the table at her and said, "I'm scared."
She didn't say, "Oh there, there." She didn't pretend she hadn't heard it, she didn't deny it, she didn't chastise me for not trusting God more. She allowed me to say it; she acknowledged and accepted it - and me.
And now I'm not alone any more.
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On today's post - Ahh, knowing you're not alone is comforting and validating. I'm glad you shared openly with your friend about your fear.
Right now the heros are the ones who fight to feed the poor. GO! FIGHT! in Jesus name!
I am glad you had your encounter with the divine yesterday.
God is definately bigger than the boogey man - it's just that sometimes the boogyman is loud and in your face and is calling you names and it's all we can see and hear. I think it is most active when we are approaching its strongholds which is why the mission is under so much attack. It's the only thing that makes sense to me.
I have recently started a creative endeavour with a co-worker. It is what I have wanted to do since I can remember. It is me. Who God made me to be and whom I am finally comfortable with being and unfolding in daily. It involves all the talents that God has graced me with. I have turned down other positions to make myself available for this trusting it will take off and fly. But every week I haul out the art supplies and wait to see if anyone will show up - I am anxious. Sometimes I dread going in and want to go back to mediocrity but there is no longer this option for me. I'm too far commited to follow Jesus to turn back now altho I sure stumble alot but He and I are cool with that and I know He likes my honesty and openess with Him.
I'm not really sure why but reading your post I feel more normal (whatever that is LOL) and figure it's just a human thang.
And RWK - you are so not alone - look around you and you will see how many people not only love you but are in this thing with you. It's just that you are carrying the weight of the whole program and sometimes it's lonely at the top because you are the guy organizing it all.
Blessings, bro - you rock!
Brian - Sometimes the characters in the Bible seem so much larger than life. It's good to be reminded every once in awhile that they too were human.
Psalm 46 - Oh yes - the battle is raging!
Paul - Thanks, brother.
'reesta - Oh contraire - it is thou who dost truly rocketh.
It's a sweet, sweet thing.